demoralize

1. To undermine the confidence or morale of; dishearten: an inconsistent policy that demoralized the staff.

2. To put into disorder; confuse.

3. To debase the morals of; corrupt.

From: http://www.thefreedictionary.com/demoralize


That is my feeling now, is a kind of deepest disappointment of life.

i demoralize because i don't know why..
is it i am bore with my life? my work? the people around me? my responsibilities? my choice?

i don't know.

i did discuss with singpoh, my senior, a very friendly, hamble & helpful father.
He said, maybe there is something i dont like that mix with the thing i like.
Just i like to clean my house, but suddently someone bring me a dog, and i have to starting to clean dog shit, care of the dog...and end up i find myself bored with everything...

Yes and no..who knows?

Maybe go for a holiday will cure me...